the beginning and the end..!!

the beginning

how it started..?? did the rain drops did it or the breeze ....don no...but it was raining,when i was in love....the rain never stopped, it was showing its joy, i was standing in front of her, asking for her hand..she didn't raise her face, ..in fact she was trying to protect herself from rain,..i could see her lips were shivering,..hands trembling..i wanted to hold her hands together...but i couldn't....did she tried to speak ...i didn't hear..i was gazing at her face, looking how the colors change invariantly..is it red..or pink..or pale..confused?? yes it was red...the wind tried to take her umbrella...but both hands united.the trembling was furious...it has been transferred to the umbrella..i smiled at her..she didn't even noticed that..whats she thinking??..may be a million things..what i was thinking??..probably nothing..those were vague, i suppose

hi

mmmm...

i jus want to say that i love you a lot...

ehhhh..

i think words got strucked in her throat..or she dont want to tell any thing....i saw she was sweating...she didn't tried to look up..keeping hear head down..she moved..i wish i could stop her...but i couldn't..she walked away with out saying a word...i stood there ..i didn't tried to ran away from rain..it was still raining...she was now at a 30 meters distance..taking the curve she gazed at me...with that distance i could imagine what her eyes were telling to me..

but i was happy....i could tell her what i was feeling for the past few weeks...

the end

i knew there is a limit for everything...someday all these is gonna end...that day it was not raining...pleasant sun...a breeze passed us...she was looking at my face, i was the one who kept my head down..staring at the grass..i raised my face n looked at her...those eyes were gazing at me...expecting something...i could see the colors change invariantly...yes it was pale...her eyes got filled..one drop fell down..i wish i could catch that...hold her tightly n kiss her..i was in a comma stage...the world was happening beneath us...we were not knowing...just me n her..she tried to tell something..her eyes sparkled in the sun...expecting something from me...i stood there saying nothing...she stared , tears were rolling down her cheeks...i tried to move...she caught my hand...her eyes were asking me to stay..dont do this please...but my decisions were always wrong...i took her hand n moved...i was walking down to the college front..she stood there watching ...i didn't tried to look back...a billion things were going in my mind... i looked back..she was not there..i went there..i could see her tears almost dried in the grass...i look around...nope i couldn't find her...i came down. that was the last day i saw her in my lifetime...

"yes my decisions always went wrong..."