Nautankisaala

I took the keys, then helmet and walked to my bike. Sitting on it I was thinking where am I going? And I couldn’t find the answer since this may be 152637^th time I was thinking the same question. I started my bike, but the kick was not enough and it produced a muffled sound, I gave one more try, this time I succeeded. I could hear the “thump thump” sound of the engine clearly in my ears. I was feeling sort of freshness.

I wasn’t having good relations with book, and till yesterday I have read only three books in my life (other than text books and magazines). And today I have completed my fourth book in six hours-“five point someone”. First of all I should admit that I use books as my sleeping pills- I don’t know what in this whole world tends me to do so- I am totally confused. And when I started this book, I was not sleepy and I was in IIT-D along with Hari, Alok and of course RYAN. Some pages moved me; yeah realities do happen to men all times..!!

I could see the lights of the vehicles coming against me, those look like the eyes of the monster which is in a hurry to catch its prey. I can barely hear any horn -thanks to helmet- one car just flew pass me. I could guess the speed was not less than 70 kmph. I was continuing my ride till I reach my usual destination. I parked the bike, took the helmet off my head and went to one shop.

I walked to that shop and asked for a cigarette. I got one, and I lit it and sat on a chair. I was feeling a lot comfort after the first puff; in fact I am giving a chance after months. And I couldn’t prevent myself in having that, because Ryan had influenced me much, and I tried to make rings out of the smoke, God when will I learn this? At that instant I wished I were back in my good old college days with my friends celebrating every day for no reason. But now I was alone here, and I could feel that Ryan, Alok and Hari are inside me, at least some amount of them in me. And if I didn’t had a puff after reading it, man I can’t even imagine that. But it’s the reality that I have given a promise not to smoke again to my friend months ago, and now I am smoking again.

I hate loneliness.., that time I think too much, and if you have a puff decorating that thought, it’s speechless. But now I could hear the “thump thump” sound of a two wheeler engine approaching me. He took his helmet and smiled at me. I smiled back. He asked for the cigarette and smoked as if it’s for the first time. Now he’s talking. What he’s talking? Probably nothing. As usual he is serious about the topic, and I know this may be for the millionth time he’s serious and talking. After so much of talking he asked “what do you think?”I just looked at him and burst into laughter. He was surprised at first and joined me. He was serious about life and I’m just opposite. And being not serious about anything I have left so many things, and yeah I love remembering those blunders, I love it what it is now.

His serious mood disappeared. Now he is normal. Gossiping, giggling and bursting in laughter we spend some hours. Time to go home. We started our bikes and cruised in opposite directions. I have to stop at the signal; it was red all the way. This road I used to go every day, no noticeable change in the past 8 years. Green light..! I accelerated.

On the way back I was thinking what Ryan, Hari and Alok will be doing now. How much will be their age? 34, 35 or more. This may happen in every professional college, some stay odds, 5.something. But it’s a damn good feeling when you screw up your life and finally become successful. Yeah it’s indeed a great feeling, feel like you are on the top of the world.

One more red light. I stopped the bike. I could see the eyes of the monsters passing by. I started when it was green. And I thought about my good friend, who asked to read this book and influenced me in reading. Sometimes I feel like it was Karan Singania speaking and I am Sukhi or DJ, for all the funniest blunders I have done… “Nautankisaala”...These words passed my ears, and I smiled…yeah I felt like I am a “Nautankisaala...”