The nose rings

What made me attracted towards her?

May be her nose rings. Yeah she had one. Those were the prettiest I have ever seen, and to tell the truth she was the best friend of mine may be the best gift I got in this life. Sometimes I think, is this a boy-girl relationship… no...Never, for that I have never considered her as a girl.! It’s not my fault...nor hers … I just like her company…I feel I am great when I am with her, I feel I am safe. I wish I could have shared everything with her, but everything happens for a reason…now she is not with me, and I feel I am lost

Where am I lost? Even I can’t give an answer

I wish I could have talked to her more, fight with her, go for a long ride, long walks, still I realize this could never going to happen. She is still with me, I feel her touch whenever I am alone, I could hear her voice whispering something in my ears, I could smell her perfume, I could sense her presence...Yeah she’s with me….

Where it went wrong?

May be it’s the fate, or the uneven writings which we are meant for.

That day the sun was not bright, and it was cloudy outside. She was sitting next to me holding my right hand, her hands were cold and I could feel they were shivering. I smiled at her she was looking at me as if she’s seeing me for the first time. I wonder why she’s doing like this, I was confused. But she was sad, as her eyes told. I stared at her eyes, will they say something, no it isn’t as earlier. They were not glowing as usual, I got dimmed down. I suddenly felt that I am going to lose her. I raised my eye brow and asked her the problem. She didn’t tell anything, but instead she holds my hand tightly against hers. I pulled my hands back, I didn’t have the energy to do so, that time I realized that I am weak… she was still in that state, I hold her hands with mine… she didn’t resist. She fell down to my chest, I didn’t know what I have to do, I held her with my hands, suddenly I felt she was crying and she was. I don’t know the reason; I don’t want to ask her, if something she could tell me she would have told.

She lay like that for some time, after a while she raised her head, her eyes were red, it lost its glow, and brightness. She stood and sat on the opposite chair it was a couch actually…keeping her legs on the small bench in between us. I reached for my cigarette and lighter. I took one and lighted it. She was still looking saying nothing, I tried to smile, but I couldn’t. I smoked half of it, she rose from her chair and reached for the half burned cigarette, and took a puff, I was wondering; suddenly her voice raised in my ears
“dude, can’t you stop smoking? Why you are playing with your health” …. I was surprised, she was like an elder person now, and I laughed “dude, I am serious “... I stopped laughing “will you stop this or not” “yeah I will stop this, and by the way what happened and all this stuffs”, and by this time she finished that cigarette and threw the bud to the ash tray.

She didn’t tell anything, I felt like a stranger sitting in front of her

“Ok, promise” “yeah...I do"
She continued her sitting posture, I was surprised, this is the first time in my life I am seeing her keeping her mouth shut. She was never like this. I wanted to ask her the matter, but someone inside me pulled back. She then rose and reached for the cigarette pack, took one and lighted it. I could see that, she was trying to make rings out of the smoke.

I reached the pack and took one cigarette and lighted it. She stared and continued making rings. I also joined her in making rings, but neither of us was good enough for that job. When it got finished, I kept the bud on the ash tray. I looked at her; she was having some imaginary smoke to make the rings. I took a magazine and started turning its pages, and when turning was over I kept it aside and looked at her, she was staring at the roof.

I took the remote and switched on the television. “Please yaar, switch it off”, I switched it off and kept the remote down.
She then asked me
“when are you going “ “this month 16^th “
“hmmmmmmmm…ook” “ok , I will make a move” I raised from the chair and reached for my keys.

She stood up and came near me and hugged me keeping her face on my chest, I stood there for a while and tried to release myself from her hug, still I am weak..!!! She then took her face off my chest and raised herself and kissed my cheeks, I tried to move but she was holding me tightly. I finally pushed her back and took her face with my hands, and kissed her forehead. She smiled and I know she was happy…I then turned back to the door she caught my hand

“dude, cya tomorrow” “are you mad, take a look at your watch, it’s already 1.40am, we will see today itself, don’t worry“; she laughed and laid her head on to my shoulders and walked to the door. I opened the door and went to the car porch, took my bike and went to my room. I could see she was standing there in the porch through my rear view mirror. I turned my head, raised my hand and waved at her.

And now, I realize how much I miss her. But still I can feel her presence every time with me. And I know where ever I go she will be there for me, and for those sleepless nights I wished I could sleep. I see her in my dreams everyday and then I fell like, I am laying on her lap and her fingers crawling through my hairs…caressing my head…and I can hear her singing for me… I feel I am truly being blessed, I wish I could sleep like this forever in her lap.