Too stubborn to LOVE……!!!!

I used to dream about my future, not so often but at least once a day. My friends used to tell me that I’m mad enough to dream about such rubbish, but I can’t help that because I’m indeed a dream factory. What I usually dream is still a mystery!!
I remember that my dreams were related with her, as I can’t get rid of her from my mind. I warned my mind several times but it has been a massive task to get it back to me.
For what reason I’m fond of her is the question that flourishes in my dreams. Still I can’t search out the answer. According to another person, say my friend the answer is quite simple, I love her, but I know that it’s not the answer I want, because she’s a lot more than that at least for me.
I’m not considered about what other people think about me in this issue. However, I do wish that none would think wrong about her. I don’t care what she thinks of me because I know that she would not presume me as a fraud.
I’m the master of my mind and my dreams because they do flourish right from my heart to my soul, my brain and my whole body. It’s true that I can’t control my mind. Nevertheless, I surely can control my feelings and my attitude.

The query arises again “What am I dreaming about?”

What a freaky question??

May be its true that I talk about dreams, which are but children of an idle brain and they give as nothing, but an abortive fantasy. But I can’t find the answer from the past few months. To love some one is very difficult as it can change the routine and seldom can it change the whole attitude. I think both the reasons have affected me and I am sure that I cannot never runaway from this situation. It’s very difficult for a person to change in a fortnight, even for me. Being a man I had tried a lot to change and there it goes again I’m indeed changed not for me but for others especially for her.
Mostly the reason may be I love her or I like her, but I don’t know what she is meant to me. Any way I’m sure that she is a very special one for me just that she is my goddess. The strange situation arises in times because strictly speaking I’m afraid of her,- all are afraid of the one they worship-. However, there is no reason that a grown up boy has to be afraid of a girl who is his junior, at least for me. The reason for my fear shattered my thoughts for days and finally I realized that this was because I love her and I don’t want to hurt her with my unlicensed tongue. I know well that love will die if held too tightly and it will fly if held too lightly, but I don’t know how I’m holding it!

She may be the only person in the world, but she is also the only world to me. To love is nothing, to be loved is something and to love and to be loved is everything as love frees us from the pains and weight of our life.
She is the most important person in my life, and when I think of her and all the precious moments we’ve shared together, it makes me realize.... I’ve truly been blessed. For every beauty there is an eye somewhere to see it. For every truth there is an ear somewhere to hear it. For every love there is a heart somewhere to receive it, I think its mine.
Love is a haunting melody that I have never mastered and I fear I never will.
Love is sometimes denied, sometimes lost, sometimes unrecognized, but in the end, always found with no regrets, forever valued and kept treasured.

I’m keeping her in my mind forever and for always. I see in her eyes the deep blue sea that’s eager to be mine. Once when the showers and the pure light dance in her clear eyes, I saw my angel for the first time..
I want her to catch my hands and walk with me towards the destiny and I have to go miles before I reach there. That’s pretty much easy for me because it’s love and love only…
But ….”The love that lasts longest is the love that is never returned”....
Too stubborn to LOVE……!!!!